Sometimes I think it would be liberating if all my old manuscript pages went up in flames.
When I say, “I’m researching,” it’s just code for, “I’m not writing.”
I go months “researching.”
There are moments when my characters totally perplex me.
Those moments are terrifying.
If I want to bail on a social event, I say I’m in a groove on a chapter and can’t step away.
“Grooves” are rare.
I hate my stories almost as much as I love them.
I feel the most complex mix of emotions when a friend publishes.
Nothing irritates me more than reading a crappy book, knowing that a publisher somewhere sings its praises.
Nothing inspires me more than a brilliantly-written book that took years to find a publishing house to call home.
I want a manager to handle my submissions and rejections. Because I can’t.
My dad has offered to be my manager.
I love my dad too much to make him a character in a book. Same with my mom.
I wonder if this means I’m not a courageous enough writer.
Most of my stories, while fiction, are triggered by a very non-fictional fear or conflict, something I don’t know how to deal with directly.
I can’t seem to write a book in which nobody dies.
Nearly every romantic relationship I’ve had is in one of my stories. Somewhere.
I fiddle with tense–past vs present–and perspective–first person vs third–when I’m afraid to call a story “done.”
I have lots of excuses.
When I say publishing isn’t that important to me anymore, I’m lying.
Nothing means more to me than someone reading my work and wanting to talk about it.
I write because I want to be understood for who I really am.
Kim,
You are not alone. What a brave and authentic post!
Thanks, Steph! It helps to hear I’m not alone. Hope you guys are doing well!
I love this and please know how inspiring you are.
I enjoy reading some of your excerpts. Cherry Blossoms in particular.
You say that you can’t write a story without someone dying??? Sometimes compromise can be the key. There’s so much misery in the World as it is….There’s nothing wrong with a happy ending:)
Make us fall in love with a character. Or make us a hate a character. Anything in between won’t make much of an impact.
I hope that you’ll continue to write.
Thanks for the comment! I appreciate you reading my excerpts 😉 I do have short stories that don’t touch on death, but I seem to visit the topic every time I write a longer piece. I think it’s just my way of dealing with it (or trying to).
Thanks, again!
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